Trainer no more

Lynette couldn't see any way to make it happen either so I had to send Darren and Tamaryn an email saying I couldn't live up to my end of the deal as one of their trainers.

I'm bitterly disappointed. Becoming a good trainer was something that was and is very important to me and the experience I had told me I could do it. Running group classes were a huge leap for me and I did a very poor job of it, mainly through being too self-conscious. If I stopped trying too hard it started to come together, but it was going to be a long slog until I could get myself out of the way of myself. I know that means, it's my blog, anyone else can go figure it out for themselves. One-on-one I'm reasonably happy with where I'm at. In that I know enough and can teach it well enough so that people can learn movements from me, be safe and get well on the way to being good CrossFitters. Am I as good as I want to be? Hell no! I still compare myself to Jeff and will always hold him as my gold standard for coaching CrossFit. I'm frustratingly deficient in drills to teach the movements, the olympic lifts in particular and that's something I want to address. Doing so was one of the things I enjoyed most about training.
I really loved working with complete beginners and teaching them the fundamentals. That's enormous fun.

So I'm out.
I'll still be involved with CFNZ where and when I can. Once I get past this effing cold and have established some sort of base fitness I'll have time to train there some of the time now.
I don't blame Darren and Tamaryn at all for the requirements they've implemented. They're very sensible and they're part of a really excellent program for developing their trainers that will set CFNZ up very well and that's good for CF in NZ. Hopefully there will be ways I can help them with that.

For now I'm thinking about how I can structure my training when I'm up to it. Thinking about things I want to include in my warm-ups/buy-ins and picking movements from Ido's Blog for cash outs. He has lots of great bodyweight movements that don't require equipment and excellent progressions to learn them. And I like capoeira, so this gives me a chance to pretend I'm learning some of the elements. If you want to humble yourself, try that Shrimp movement of his. http://idoportal.blogspot.com/2009/08/explosive-leg-workout.html